Showing posts with label heart broke. Show all posts
Showing posts with label heart broke. Show all posts

Thursday, December 24, 2015

How Music Can Bring you to atop the mountain , knock you down upon your knees

Can't help but post this one again.... it is just too amazing for words... It still brings me to my knees when I hear it... I am such a music lover, and have been all my life... and music, much like poetry and writing, the "poetry" of lyrics can stir up so many emotions... good, bad, heart warming, heart breaking... but our "hearts" as strong as they beat... when the "heart of love" has to give way, to watch the person walk out the door... our hearts are glass and they definitely "break and shatter like glass"... I "stepped" out of listening to music for a bit of time... and wondered why... well, "life"... getting so caught up in life, and not remembering to "listen" not to just the music, but to the lyrics that "speak" to our shattered and battered hearts... Love is one of those things that "never leave"... those memories are always there, no matter if it is a week, a month, or years... just like a ghost "love" follows with all it gave to us... None of us are "beyond" suffering... whether it is suffering from a broken heart, or the loss of someone dear to you, or remembering "how things used to be"... or the physical realms of illness and chronic pain so many of us go through... I think that is why I find it so crucial for ALL of us to "make our marks" to the government does not realize... that THEY, or SOMEONE THEY LOVE, Could also be "broken" or in pain, or a chronic illness suddenly plagues their lives... not one of us here on Earth are capable of "not hurting"... in one way or the other... we have those who "pretend" at times things go wrong, and it does not matter, BUT it does... no amount of MONEY can "fix" a broken heart.... there are not enough years in a lifetime to make that type of pain "mend"... I said this BEFORE the Trial that would were "prohibited" to talk about until it was over... THERE WAS NO AMOUNT OF MONEY THOSE PEOPLE THAT OWN THAT BUSINESS, AND THAT TRUCK DRIVER, THEIR INSURANCE AND SO FORTH, THAT WILL "REPAIR" OUR SOULS, CAN fix many things that are physically, mentally and emotionally... yes, I won't say that we "did not need the money".... of course we NEEDED it... Gosh it was one of the only things that Jim had hopefully coming in to help get with doctors, medications and all of the PT he needs to continue... Fortunately, as I "predicted" I guess you could say, that fateful night they brought him in after a 9 HOUR surgery on his mid spine, he "wiggled" his big toe, just enough I saw it... from that moment, no one could tell me he would never walk again, or never be able to work again... I knew at that moment that in the heavens, "Jim's job here was not done"... and that he would walk, maybe with a cane, but not be wheelchair all the time, and I knew he would play the guitar again, thus he is and also writing lyrics again... which we both LOVE to do together, along with playing music....And all of that had came through...And he is able to do "some work" again, but his "temporary" memory is what he has issues with... but again I feel time will also make that better...
I cannot "predict" why we "lost" the lawsuit... I have given my "thoughts" on it, and feel the Paid off people and also lied on the witness stand... but I have no "proof" just a gut feeling... yet, what goes around comes around... thus I have to do nothing, one day... they will "pay" in some form or fashion, if they did in fact "lie" and pay off people to lie...
As mere humans, we never know what tomorrow holds, yet the prior years, we shall always "retain" in our hearts... I do feel "broken" and although I am trying to NOT been a "grinch" I am a bit agitated about the holidays... Yet I know I am not the only one... so many people that are friends, are going through such a horrible time right now... so if I can remain "healthy" enough to get through the pain pump surgery on Tuesday 29th, and then get my neck surgery, and my lumbar surgery, I think unless something else "breaks" my pain would be more manageable.
New poem below... needs some work, but wanted to post it...


Though There are Miles between us....
Where is that sweetness that found us years ago...
Neither of us expected such a loss or to feel so low.
How can two lovers combine & make plans for a future?
Within the blink of an eye feel as if all we live in is torture.
I won't take "we are over" for an answer after 13 years..
I still feel that fire burning, & I feel you do, yet we have fears...
Yet, stare up in the sky tonight and see the full moon beaming..
Now we can take those small "pieces" of heart with seaming...
Thousands of miles and many states between...
Never shall "rob" two lovers, who souls endless, "Us" a Team.
As sure as my heart beats, I pray the "distance" between us shall be gone...
Where those words we spoke to one another shall be what moves us along..
By Rhia Steele 12/24/2015


Break On Me... by Keith Urban
There'll be days your heart don't wanna beat
You pray more than you breathe
And you just wanna fall to pieces
And nights, those 2 AM calls
Where dreams become walls
And you just need a break
Break on me
Shatter like glass
Come apart in my hands
Take as long as it takes, girl
Break on me
Put your head on my chest
Let me help you forget
When your heart needs to break
Just break on me
There'll be times when someone you know
Becomes someone you knew
But you'd do anything to change it
And words you wanna take back
But you know you can't
When the page just won't turn
And it still hurts
Break on me
Shatter like glass
Come apart in my hands
Take as long as it takes, girl
Break on me
Put your head on my chest
Let me help you forget
When your heart needs to break
Just break on me
Oh, when you need somebody
When you need somebody right now
You're where I'll be
Break on me
Shatter like glass
Come apart in my hands
Take as long as it takes, girl
Break on me
Put your head on my chest
Let me help you forget
When your heart needs to break
Just break on me
Break on me
Break on me, baby