"Through my heart's work of writing, I share with you my complex journey a top the mountain, sliding down, crawling up, & living through the realms of Autoimmune Arthritic Illnesses. Taming "The Wolf" Thru each Day... One Step at a Time … Together We Are Learning to Survive. Please follow along, to New Beginnings - looking Thru the Window Pane of Pain in life where we shall find our journey leading us to - New Perspectives
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
In the Wake of A Monster Storm - More signs of the times...
It so so difficult to even think about the unfathomable amount of loss over the East Coast. As the stories continued to unfold, the loss of life, homes, everything for so many people, cities, entire towns, and our economic situation, we try to find reasons for why this has to happen. I know it has to be a question that runs through all of those in the wake of this "massive monster storm", as to why our country endures such a loss that is too big for words. Yesterday, as I went to run some errands, I happened to have to run to get my dogs some medication. There is a woman there I know, and she was in the process of getting the channel on the TV there to watch what was happening as far as the storm. We got to talking, and her comment was "She felt this was a "sign" of the times", which I feel the same in many ways about. These types of "Monster Storms", along with all types of unthinkable natural disasters are so difficult to view any other way. Then you take all of the other issues through out our nation and our entire world. From those who run through streets of entire towns killing innocent people, to those who march against all of us as terrorists to harm not only the USA but so many other countries around the globe. When you see a young person who is ready to strap a massive amount of material that will blow up or put it in a vehicle and know they will take their own lives "in the name of whatever" to hurt, maim, and do untold harm all around, those people are another sign of the times. We have untold amounts of people without jobs. Our water, our ground, our oceans, our air.... our food, everything we "intake" into our bodies is basically full of one type of contamination or another, whether it be "hormones" to make them grow quicker, or antibiotics, or preservatives, all of it in one way or the other must harm humans. We see massive forests disappearing, while more and more concrete takes over. Our air is so polluted, we see more children, and record numbers of adults that never had asthma now developing breathing and lung issues because our air is so full of contaminants. Our economic situation has not been this bad since the "Great Depression" and in my opinion it is "worse" in many ways that the depression of the 30's. We have so much GREED, corruption, negligence, and other types of those who choose to be more for themselves, than to help their fellow neighbor, that jobs for the "everyday" people are gone, We have "technologically" damaged our selves out of jobs. We have changed "main street" America into huge amount of businesses that offer more "title loans", pawn shops", "cash loans, gold buying places" rather than shoe stores and clothing shops. It is SAD when I drive through my small home town, and it seems every month yet another "Payday" loan, "title" loan, or pawn shop opens up, in what used to be places we bought items from local shop owners. I can count more than 10 to 12 of these types of businesses, and more coming in by the numbers. It almost makes me sick to see them. Thus, I feel the same as what she and I talked about, it is truly, a sign of what is coming very soon. We are headed for the end of times. We are headed for utter destruction; those that do not have their "business" in order(and I mean their "heart" and "soul" right with their Higher Power") should be truly thinking about that business, because in my heart, I feel ready. I added as I left from talking to her as she said what I felt.. we have taken "Higher Power" (I won't say God" since I feel everyone thinks of that entity in different ways), out of everything... out of our homes, schools (kids cannot even say a devotional as we did in my elementary school), and yes businesses and yes our government! I realize the separation of "church" and "state" BUT that does NOT mean to IGNORE WHO is the very essence of all people. Let's face it, we were a much better place, when we had our priorities straight in lives... putting the most important things first, saying grace, attending church, giving our children a solid foundation of morality to stand on... and I say morality, because that means how to treat others, how to run their lives right, without harm to others... teaching them RIGHT FROM WRONG, and parents these days just DON"T for the most part, look around... at all of the things that are just "wrong". yesterday, we went out to eat to celebrate my "1st book" being published...there were only a handful of people in this local buffet, and 3 of the women there honestly were so obese, to the point of not just obesity, but it was "morose" to even watch them fill plate after plate! with more food.... and GLUTTONY is the only word for it... these women did NOT have medical issues, or other things that were beyond their control making them that huge... they were all relatively young, well below the age of 40, some probably in their late 20's. IT was to the point of being "repulsive" to think about eating, when we saw them continue to walk by with full sized plates, one after the other FULL and overflowing with food. I don't mean to be offensive at all. I am NOT talking about those who have weight issues that truly cannot help it. Those with medical issues, and other reasons that they are overweight have nothing to do with what we saw yesterday evening. Even I worry about my own weight due to the medication of Prednisone I take. It is a small dose, but it is daily, and it can cause weight issues if I don't keep a daily watch on my diet and exercise. But, these types of issues, look around at our young people, they I would say 60 percent of them overweight or obese in our society now days. These are just a few things that all point to there is a short time left here. I am NO PROPHET!! I don't "foresee" the future and I am not some fanatic... I am merely giving out what I see, hear, and feel in my own heart and mind.... things are out of control and we should stand back and really survey our lives, and decide what truly is important today, tomorrow, and the days we have left...none of us know that day, that moment... but for us that believe we do know it is all unfolding...
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
The Amazon.com LInk To Ramblings of a Seasoned Soul "Brush Strokes of Life In Words"
Here is the OFFICIAL AMAZON.COM link to my New Book! I am so totally thrilled!!!
http://www.amazon.com/Ramblings-Seasoned-Soul-Strokes-Volume/dp/1461061946/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1351633040&sr=8-1&keywords=Ramblings+of+a+seasoned
It is also listed below in the post from yesterday, but I wanted to make sure it was visible.... Hope all is well with you and yours across the country.... My heart and prayers go out to all on the Eastern Sea Board.... I have had you on my mind since 3:30 am.... Rhia
http://www.amazon.com/Ramblings-Seasoned-Soul-Strokes-Volume/dp/1461061946/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1351633040&sr=8-1&keywords=Ramblings+of+a+seasoned
It is also listed below in the post from yesterday, but I wanted to make sure it was visible.... Hope all is well with you and yours across the country.... My heart and prayers go out to all on the Eastern Sea Board.... I have had you on my mind since 3:30 am.... Rhia
Monday, October 29, 2012
Ramblings of a Seasoned Soul "Brush Strokes of Life in Words"
Ramblings of A Seasoned Soul
Brush Strokes of Life through Words
https://www.createspace.com/3587328?ref=1147694&utm_id=6026&fb_action_ids=4425618113428&fb_action_types=og.likes&fb_source=aggregation&fb_aggregation_id=288381481237582
It is Done!!! Finally after so many years, way more than 30, I have published my very first book! I pray there will be several more to follow! For most of my life, I have written, poetry, journal writing, just writing. I write for all kinds of reasons, through pain, happiness, sadness, strife, chronic illness, love, laughter, and life above all!!! I promised myself that before I take that one last breath, I would get a book published! TODAY October 29th, 2012, is another one of those monumental days of life that make you feel you are standing a top your own mountain and not one soul could ever make you roll down again! But, those rolls down are what gave me all of the words to make this book and the ones to follow reality.
I am excited to share these poems with my family, friends, and all of those that have been an inspiration along the way. My favorite song lyrics (one of many) has always been "when they carve my stone, all they need to write on it, is once lived a girl who got all she ever wanted, tell me something... who could ask for more.... to be living in a moment... you would die for... alas this is one of those shining moments... a day in my own life that is one of infamy! My hopes are that in reading these works of life, love, pain, and all that go into the spaces in between, you are moved to climb to your own mountain top... and stay there, with the sun shining upon your face. To all that continue to inspire me.... I am honored.....
Rhiannon
HERE!!! is the OFFICIAL Amazon.com link to my new book!
Ramblings of a Seasoned Soul - Amazon.com Link
Brush Strokes of Life through Words
https://www.createspace.com/3587328?ref=1147694&utm_id=6026&fb_action_ids=4425618113428&fb_action_types=og.likes&fb_source=aggregation&fb_aggregation_id=288381481237582
It is Done!!! Finally after so many years, way more than 30, I have published my very first book! I pray there will be several more to follow! For most of my life, I have written, poetry, journal writing, just writing. I write for all kinds of reasons, through pain, happiness, sadness, strife, chronic illness, love, laughter, and life above all!!! I promised myself that before I take that one last breath, I would get a book published! TODAY October 29th, 2012, is another one of those monumental days of life that make you feel you are standing a top your own mountain and not one soul could ever make you roll down again! But, those rolls down are what gave me all of the words to make this book and the ones to follow reality.
I am excited to share these poems with my family, friends, and all of those that have been an inspiration along the way. My favorite song lyrics (one of many) has always been "when they carve my stone, all they need to write on it, is once lived a girl who got all she ever wanted, tell me something... who could ask for more.... to be living in a moment... you would die for... alas this is one of those shining moments... a day in my own life that is one of infamy! My hopes are that in reading these works of life, love, pain, and all that go into the spaces in between, you are moved to climb to your own mountain top... and stay there, with the sun shining upon your face. To all that continue to inspire me.... I am honored.....
Rhiannon
HERE!!! is the OFFICIAL Amazon.com link to my new book!
Ramblings of a Seasoned Soul - Amazon.com Link
For All in Harm's Way of this Massive Storm of Destruction Please Heed the Warnings... our prayers are with you...
As I scurry to read about this massive possibly deadly and most
certainly destructive storm, I like so many thousands and thousands
across the nation and world are thinking and praying for all in harm's
way. It is so difficult to fathom Mother Nature can decide to throw such
a massive natural disaster our way and within moments, take live and
turn it upside down. But, it can certainly do that within the blink of
an eye. speaking of the "eye" gosh, in looking at the size of this
monster, just the cloud cover alone tells you the drama that is about to
unfold over the entire Eastern Coast Line.... When it is going to
possibly effect the Great Lake's around Chicago, with a storm surge, as I
believe I read, the just slowly begins to allow me to understand the
horrid amount of damage to possible life, and then to thin of how many
lives will be effected in one way or the other by this storm as it comes
through on its very slow path. From dumping more than a foot of snow in
the mountains of Virginia, to flooding possibly the New York and New
Jersey subways, to storm surges that could wipe out entire towns, it
tells us we ARE NOT IN CONTROL!!! The only control we have is to make a
"smart" choice early enough, and get the heck out of the way of this
monstrous and massive Lady Storm... Honestly she is NO LADY but more
like a "BIATCH!"... hella, helluva, or however you want to put if, it is
one hell-a-cious disaster in the making. I realize just the thought of
losing everything... your mementos, your memories, your home, and
possibly everything you have acquired in your entire life is a night
mare... and it must be hell having to leave so much behind, BUt saving
your family and your life is so much more important. SO, PLEASE if they
are telling you to get the heck out of this storms way, and evacuate...
please heed those warnings and get to where you are safe... your life is
so much more important, and memories can remain in your heart, items
and things can be replaced... and you can put that back together... even
though it is extremely difficult.... I know due to living in "tornado
alley" there have been times I was not sure I would have a home or not
over the years when the huge Cat 5 and even the smaller tornado's roll
in you wonder what will be left within moments after ward... and often
it is nothing... but all that are in the path of destruction I hope do
truly get to safety.... remember all of you are in our thoughts and
prayers over the coming days... and realize even when it passes it can
be far from over due to whatever Sandy decides to dump in your area...
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Medical REAL LIFE horror in the OR! Totally UNWARRANTED!
this is the largest mess I am seen in our medical society and just
continues to get worse by the moment! It is a testament to just how
fouled up we are with our medical situation in this nation. My questions
is HOW can VIALS of a medication that goes through many hands, from the
compounding pharmacy, to the hospitals pharmacy, to the nurses who pick
it up, to those who handle the vial in the OR, to even the main OR
nurse and the DOCTOR!!!!, and you mean to tell me NOT ONE person saw
"CRAP" floating around in a CLEAR VIAL of medication???? How can that
be??? So many people handle a vial of medication for injection like
that, thus missing some greenish black or white filament like stuff
floating in fluid that is supposed to be either clear or even if a
little cloudy when shaken etc... SOME ONE should have SEEN IT????? We
have TOO MANY PATIENTS, and doctors that SEE too may patients, they do
too many procedures daily, and that is why these kinds of mistakes are
not caught somewhere in the chain. BEFORE doctors had to FIGHT TO KEEP
ENOUGH MONEY TO HAVE A PRACTICE, any and all of the staff that saw those
"vial" of contaminated medication would have been very aware that
something was very wrong. Now, doctors barely even know who someone is
in their office and probably less in the OR!!! They have a chart, a
nurse to make sure they have the right person and other staff like the
anesthesiologist to keep the patients straight, and doctors do even
surgeries like "herding" cattle through a shoot for slaughter! It is one
after the other... half the time, they don't even "close". Some
assistant does the final suturing, stapling, gluing or however the final
incision is closed. Believe me, I can tell the difference after surgery
of the doctors that KNOW THEIR PATIENTS and they do the surgery from
opening to closing every step. I witnessed this idiot that did my biopsy
on my temporal artery the other day practically running out of OR,
stripping off that gown to hurry for a new one, and I heard them say
yes, the next one is ready basically! Now you tell me how the hell we
don't have even more medical mistakes from bad medications
(contaminated), to wrong medicines given, to wrong surgeries performed
(and their are more than we really know), to nurses who do NOT follow
doctors orders(and I have experienced MANY of them), to any and every
other type of "so-called accident" there could be in the realms of
medical care at any facility!!! These types of issues have gotten to be
so "mundane" compared to all of our other mess in the world that the
news medical "don't feel this kind of stuff is NEWS WORTHY ENOUGH to
even talk about anymore. This is the very reasons our entire system
needs to be changed. this business about doctors overworked with too
many patients, and too many not needed procedures, scans, X-rays, blood
tests, expense invasive things done, and the list goes on, and all due
to the name of the game..MONEY, AND GREED!!!! I was speaking of my book
just below, here is the subject of an entire book for me!!!! I have been
through enough surgeries, tests, procedures, doctors, and seen mistakes
in my own life as far as medical mistakes to FILL A BOOK! One in
particular was so bad it ALMOST COST ME MY LIFE! And I am NOT JOKING
about that one. IT alone could be a book. So, this is very near and dear
to my heart. Our system is BROKEN, it is filled with doctors who have
to do enough "procedures" "tests", surgeries and what have you to be
able to keep a business open! I just kind of "lost" my own
Rheumatologist who had his own PERSONA PRACTICE open for over 7 YEARS!!!
But, due to the ever climbing prices of the business he had to CLOSE IT
AND GO TO TEACHING, RESEARCHING, and then SOME PRACTICING, BUT ONLY
PART-TIME NOW!! And he was the BEST Rheumatologist in the DFW area, in
fact I venture to say in TEXAS! He knew his patients, he was never late,
he ALWAYS LISTENED, HE never over scheduled, when you needed prior
authorization on medications, he DID IT RIGHT THERE IMMEDIATELY HIMSELF
IN THE ROOM, I mean the man knows his stuff. I could not fathom him
unable to meet his obligations, but it is due to the horrible mess with
insurance companies, Medicare, and the entire screwed up ball of crap
our medical situation is in!!! Good doctors cannot survive!!!!! I have
been watching this since it first unfolded as I said above since my
issues of 2010 honestly almost killed me. It was supposed to be a
"routine" gallbladder removal. I can tell you it was anything but
"routine" and it went so far beyond a gallbladder removal, that when in
the end was more than likely NOT NEEDED! It just goes to show, sometimes
"things are not what they seem", doctors should TAKE MORE TIME TO SEE
THE EVIDENCE, rather than waiting for a million tests, get down to the
brass tacks of what is really going on. I realize my circumstances were
very emergent, and symptoms revealed things that appeared to be gall
bladder related. But, the surgeon that done the procedure either fouled
up, and never admitted it OR something went very wrong in the hours
following that surgery. What made it worse, is because it HAPPENED to
be "WEEKEND" so rather than try to nail down the problems or transfer
me, they waited.... AND ALMOST WAITED TOO LONG!! By the time I was
finally transferred to another hospital, it was almost too late! Even
then my life was very touch and go for days. They had called my family
in to be "together" more than once during several of the operations I
endured over the coming days. I believe I was more in the operating room
than out, them trying to first even establish what the real problem
was, then what to do to fix it. Still honestly till this day, even
reading the records, I don't think they knew what the issues really
were, other than I was extremely and critically ill. I lost over a week
or more of "time" where I had no clue what happened. My husband has
tried to fill in the blanks, because I was so severely ill, and had so
much medication in me, that I don't remember many of the surgeries that
went on. There was an entire week, that I thought that my husband never
even came to the hospital yet he had been there every day, sometimes he
drove two times daily all the way from Ennis to see me. It was a living
hell for him and my family... and for me! I, at the time was so ill, I
did not realize just how badly things were. But, each time I see
something like this, especially when it involves a situation that SOME
ONE COULD HAVE CAUGHT THIS!!! , PLUS IT SHOULD NEVER HAVE HAPPENED! I
watched the news and saw last night, A COUPLE BOTH HAD INJECTIONS. The
wife passed away, and now the HUSBAND is ill with meningitis!!! So that
family may lose BOTH PARENTS to this absolutely stupid certainly KNOWN
error. It proves once again GREED RULES! Due to being cheap, to make a
few bucks rather than sterile and clean to save peoples lives they went
for the cheap, contaminated, filthy route! Can you imagine being
injected directly into your SPINAL FLUID THAT SURROUNDS YOUR BRAIN WITH
MOLD AND CONTAMINATED MEDICATIONS?????? It just makes me ill to even
think about it!!!!!
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