We Tend to Hide Pain and Disabilities

Some disabilities show on the outside. SOME disabilities do not show at all. Those of us with many of these disabilities hide. We do not want pity, sadness, longing, and all of the things people don't say or do say, because they don't know what to say.
For me, I want to feel normal, look normal, and be treated as if I had no pain, no illnesses, no tears, and no fear. I DO have a long list of worries and doubts. I often look at Bella and see the love in her big, brownish-green eyes, feel her long, silky ears, and those beautiful, huge paws. If there is a love of my life, she is. When no one else is around, when the pain and heartache are nearly too much to bear, Bella is my rock. Some may not understand how a dog gives you courage and unconditional love and takes away the fears of what life can throw at us.
I'm having difficulty beginning a new book. I've listened to music nonstop, read other books, watched "Virgin River" and "Good Witch" again, and watched a couple of Christmas Movies for inspiration.
I realize that writer's block is temporary. I've been through this before. I have so many emotions running through my heart and mind about how my life has been a hot mess due to illness, loss, and all of the other things life throws our way.
Each of you with a disability, whether seen or hidden, YOU are perfect. YOU deserve happiness and a life fulfilled in every way.
I had so many plans, being a nurse, and I wished I had known more about Functional Medicine and how we can heal without some of the terrible Western medicine that has been thrown at us. I seriously considered taking a Functional Medicine class to help others. They are expensive, but finding one you can trust is a huge issue. As I delve into this new book (although I had a 2nd one written), pray that I can find my path to help others.