A few days ago I have been Diagnosed with Triple Negative Stage 4 Breast Cancer that has moved to my lymph nodes to my liver.
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THIS NATION AND WORLD WIDE MESS IS A FLIPPIN' HAND BASKET OF OF HELL!!!! ESPECIALLY FOR PAIN PATIENTS BUT THER MEDICAL DEVICES...
this could potentially effect these all of these devices....
https://www.medtronic.com/us-en/healthcare-professionals/products.html
I AM BATSHI! CRAZY!! I HAVE JUST ABOUT LOST MY MIND, PHYSICALLY MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY!!! BETWEEN ALL THE MESS WITH MY HEALTH, HAVING TO PUT OFF SURGERIES, NOW TRYING TO STAY WELL SO CAN GET THE PAIN PUMP REPLACE (BEEN TRYING SINCE IT WENT OUT ON DEC 20TH, 2022)... BROKEN COLLR BONE NEEDS SURGERY, THART RIGHT SHOULDER IS A FLIPPIN' GRAND HOT MESS!! AND MY LEFT THUMB, THE LUMP ON IT BETWEEN IT AND MY WRIST, BOTH HANDS ARE KILLNG ME! I am probably SURGERY ON IT!!!! PLUS I DID NOT HAVE A UTI THANK GOODNESS BUT I HAVE CRYSTALS SO THE SEVERE PAIN IN MY LOW BACK, FLANK AREA, AND DOWN THROUGH MY HIPS OFF AND ON.... COULD BE KIDNEY STONES OR MY LOWER BACK I MUCH WORSE!! I WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE LOWER BACK SURGERY AND COVID HIT!!!!! WE WERE GOIN TO DO THAT AND REPLACE MY ALREADY REVERSE REPLACED RIGHT SHOULDER AND COVID HIT AGAIN, THEN LUPUS COLITIS HIT, THEN ALL THE ULCERS THAT WERE INFECTED WTH STAPH, & PNEUMONAS. took 8 weeks or more to get those well, MY HOUSE IS A FLIPPIN' DISASTER. I NEED A ROOF, A WALK IN SHOWER, MY FLOORS REDONE IN MY KITCHEN THE NEW LAUNDRY ROOM NEVER GOT DONE NOW MY CARPORT IS LEAKING AND MY DRIVEWAY DUE TO THE WAY THE CITY HAS THE ROAD IN FRONT OF MY HOUSE DONE, IT RAINS AND WATERS RUNS ALL THE WAY UNDER MY CARPORT!!! FOR THE 1ST TIME IN 4 MONTHS OR MORE I WENTTO THE MARKET MYSELF, OUT IT ALL IN THE BASKET, CHECKED IT OUT WITH SELF CHECK, TOOK T TO THE CAR, PUT IT IN THE CAR ... GOT HOME, UNLOADED IT AND PUT IT UP... THEN SUFFERED WITH MY DAMNED SHOULDERS AND BACK...BUT I CAN'T AFFORD TO CONTINUE TO PAY THE DELIVERY FEES..... NOT WTH THE PRICE OF GROCERIES UP AGAIN, YEAH I AM A FLIPPIN' AZZ3D HOT MESS!!! SORRY I HAVE GOT TO WRITE IT SAY IT OR SOMETHING.... AND A LUPUS FLARE LAST WEEK... I TRY MY BEST TO BE POSITIVE AND NOT BIATCH., BUT AM MORE THEN FED THE HECK UP AND ON MY LAST NERVE!! PLUS YOU NEED A PHD TO WORK A CAR NOW DAYS, DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THAT!! PLUS MY YARD WAS A MESS...I HAVE LIMBS THAT NEED TO BE PICKED UP AND CLEANED UP FROM THE WINDS IN THE WINTER....JUST EVERY DAY SEEMS LIKE IT NEVER ENDS!!! LIKE THE SONG, I NEED LESS HEARTACHE AND MORE PEACE OF MIND!!!! JUST WANT TO GET THE HELL OUT OF THIS HOUSE AND IT NOT BE FOR A DOCTOR, TEST ETC....
IF I SURVIVE THE 9 PLUS PAIN I AM IN WITHOUT HAVING TO GO TO ER THIS WEEKEND IT WILL BE A MIRACLE... THIS IS GOTTEN TO WHERE I DON'TKNOW WHO TO TRUST, WHO TO GO TO..... & i need to try and hold out till Tuesday at 2pm for the pump surgery.... it is BAD!! and i had to move to move my collarbone surgery to May 30th due to the pump being delayed another 2 weeks!!!π‘π‘π‘π‘π‘π‘π‘π‘π‘π‘π‘π‘
I AM BATSHI! CRAZY!! I HAVE JUST ABUT LOST MY MIND, PHYSICALLY MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY!!! BETWEEN ALL THE MESS WITH MY HEALTH, HAVING TO PUT OFF SURGERIES, NOW TRYING TO STY WELL SO CAN GET THE PAIN PUMP REPLACE (BEEN TRYING SINCE IT WENT OUT ON DEC 20TH, 2022)... BROKEN COLLR BONE NEEDS SURGERY, THART RIGHT SHOULDER IS A FLIPPIN' GRAND HOT MESS!! AND MY LEFT THUMB, THE LUMP ON IT BETWEEN IT AND MY WRIST, BOTH HANDS ARE KILLNG ME! I am probably SURGERY ON IT!!!! PLUS I DID NOT HAVE A UTI THANK GOODNESS BUT I HAVE CRYSTALS SO THE SEVERE PAIN IN MY LOW BACK, FLANK AREA, AND DOWN THROUGH MY HIPS OFF AND ON.... COULD BE KIDNEY STONES OR MY LOWER BACK I MUCH WORSE!! I WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE LOWER BACK SURGERY AND COVID HIT!!!!! WE WERE GOIN TO DO THAT AND REPLACE MY ALREADY REVERSE REPLACED RIGHT SHOULDER AND COVID HIT AGAIN, THEN LUPUS COLITIS HIT, THEN ALL THE ULCERS THAT WERE INFECTED WTH STAPH, & PNEUMONAS. took 8 weeks or more to get those well, MY HOUSE IS A FLIPPIN' DISASTER. I NEED A ROOF, A WALK N SHOWER, MY FLOORS REDONE IN MY KITCHEN THE NEW LAUNDRY ROOM NEVER GOT DONE NOW MY CARPORT IS LEAKING AND MY DRIVEWAY DUE TO THE WAY THE COTY HAS THE ROAD IN FRONT OF MY HOUSE DONE, IT RAINS AND WATERS RUNS ALL THE WAY UNDER MY CARPORT!!!! FOR THE 1ST TIME IN4 MONTHS OR MORE I WENTTO THE MARKET MYSELF, UT IT ALL N THE BASKET, CHECKED IT OUT WITH SELF CHECK, TOOK THE TO THE CAR, PUT IT IN THE CAR ... GOT HOME, UNLOADED IT AND PUT IT UP... THEN SUFFERED WITH MY DAMNED SHOULDERS AND BACK...BUT I CAN'T AFFORD TO CONTINUE TO PAY THE DELIVERY FEES..... NOT WTH THE PRICE OF GROCERIES UP AGAIN, YEAH I AM A FLIPPIN' AZZ3D HOT MESS!!! SORRY I HAVE GOT TO WRITE IT SAY IT OR SOMETHING.... AND A LUPUS FLARE LAST WEEK... I TRY MY BEST TO BE POSITIVE AND NOT BIATCH., BUT AM MORE THEN FED THE HECK UP AND ON MY LAST NERVE!! PLUS YOU NEED A PHD TO WORK A CAR NOW DAYS, DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THAT!! PLUS MY YARD WAS A MESS...D I HAVE LMBS THAT NEED TO BE PICKED UP AND CLEANED UP FROM THE WINDS IN THE WINTER....JUST EVERY DAY SEEMS LIKE IT NEVER ENDS!!! LIKE THE SONG, I NEED LESS HEARTACHE AND MORE PEACE OF MIND!!!! JUST WANT TO GET THE HELL OUT OF THIS HOUSE AND IT NOT BE FOR A DOCTOR, TEST ETC....
This is how severe the osteoarthritis/RA has developed over the past 6 weeks L. hand and now r. thumb has a lump beginning DUE TO THE PAIN DOCTOR MESSING AROUND AND NOT GETTING THE PAIN PUMP SURGERY DONE AT LEAST 5 TO 6 WEEKS AGO, SO I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO TAKE MY LUPUS/RA MEDS WAITING ON SURGERY. I already had been without my Kevzara (biologic for RA) for months due to the antibiotics and bacterial infection on my L. leg... he could have done that surgery weeks ago I was released and clear of infection on Feb 20th.. now he has waited around and I am having a severe Lupus flare been ill all week, & may not be able to have the surgery next Tuesday...BETWEEN THE GOVERNMENT BULL WITH PAIN MEDS...AND THE GRIEF THE DOCTORS ARE GETTING AND HAVING TO GIVE PATIENTS ABOUT MEDS... MANY OF US ARE SUFFERING NEEDLESSLY...I HAVE HAD ENOUGH...MORE THAN ENOUGH AND I WANT TO GET TOGETHER AND GET SOMETHING DONE ABOUT THE CRAP ON CAPITOL HILL, DEA ETC KEEPING US LEGITIMATE PAIN CHRONIC PATIENTS FROM GETTING OUR PROPER AND NEEDED TREATMENT. SEND ME A MESSAGE IF YOU WANT TO GET A PETITION OR SOMETHING DONE ABOUT THIS HORRIBLE MESS WE ARE HAVING TO GO THROUGH!
So far my left leg looks completely well.. no infection, nothing to indicate the places are not healing... they still are tender but the top skin is taking a while to cover over completely.
So they have cleared me for both surgeries, the pain pump n April 11th and 6 weeks later the clavicle repair on May 16th.
I will be THRILLED TO HOPEFULLY GET OVER ALL OF THIS AND HAVE SOME KIND OF LIFE!!
I DO HAVE SEVERE OSTEOARTHRITIS IN THE BASA PART OF MY LEFT THUMB, SO BAD THE OSTEOPHYTES AND ALL OF THE ARTHRITIS SHOWS CLEARLY ON AN X-RAY... SO IT COULD BE IF WE CAN'T CONTROL THE SEVERE PAIN AND SWELLING WITH CORTICOSTEROID INJECTIONS, I MAY FACE BASAL THUMB SURGERY DOWN THE ROAD!