Support All of US and/or family members. friends, or Caretakers that are living in a "World of Hurt" due to Chronic Pain
BETWEEN MY OWN ILLNESSES AND MY HOUSE DETERIORATING I feel CURSED, HEXED!!!
I am sick and tired of getting "well" only to become ill again within a week! The (C.Diff or whatever) came back after 6 days of going away... I still cannot pinpoint what the hell is causing it. And the one tiny spot (after just about ALL of the weeping Eczema is gone) suddenly the top came off of it and it began slowly seEping AGAIN!!! As I said only son's pot, think honestly I am "cursed", hexed... or something that... I know that sounds almost insane not a usual "human issue" in health.
But, to have SO MANY THINGS HAPPEN within a short time after Jim left in the wind back to Seattle, I have had nothing but grief and heartache... my Mom passed away, i lost my teeth and had to have dentures made, I fell and broke my hip and spent 5 weeks in inpatient rehab...lost both Tazzy and Bub's suddenly, got this C. Diff or WHATEVER THE HORRID STUFF IS, but it goes away and is back within weeks, broke my collarbone and shoulder blade, it seems it just continues on and on... I FEEL HE HAS SOME KIND OF HORRID GRIP ON ME EVEN FROM THE GRAVE! Hard to explain how MANY THING HAVE GONE WRONG WITH ME, AND THEN THE HOUSE... hot water leaks, then ruined laundry room with mold, toilet still need to be reseated, my lawn is horrible, and I can't get out and work on it as usual, too hot,, then all the illnesses etc, .... praying, praying praying yet iI feel hexed, cursed, punished for "something" and I have no clue what or why!🥲😢👎🔥💔☣️❓❓
So Much to Do, to Say, To want to do, NEED to DO!!! Yet, the battle of it All goes on.. from COVID-& Variants to pseudo-gout, to THIS HOUSE falling Apart! Where are the plumbers, electricians, Handy Men & everyone when you REALLY NEED THEM! HELP!!
This is a couple of posts from Facebook I have posted & due to all of my own health issues especially with my Hands, Wrists, fingers - the RA Flares, the Pseudo-Gout and as it goes on.. I wanted to play catch up here a bit..
Oh Yes and INSANITY IN TEXAS WITH OUR WEATHER (and as it seems every place else in the Nation)
thy said on the news that ALL 50 TATES HAVE SOME FORM OF COVID - EXCEPT ANARTICA?? AND WE WONDER WHY...
Back to the house needing to be repaired! In am no good at making dumplings. They tend to be like "rubbery balls of mush" LOL! Honestly, after baking a small hen for Christmas rather than turkey or ham. Then having more chicken left over than I thought, all 3 of us I think are "tired of chicken"... I decided yesterday to go to something completely different. I did some fish portions, which were good, some regular fries, and a couple of onion rings. Then I made "Ranch dip/dressing" of my own, had yogurt, small orange jello with the cool whip inn it & Voila' something different... Even the fur-babies Bella and Peanut were thrilled... LOL!!! Well, the holidays are past, which seems crazy. The temps went from 80 degrees night before last to 25 degrees up in the day yesterday.. of course my poor plants on the front porch are beyond "freezer burned"... & that wind and wind chill plus the temps yesterday kept me from barely walking on the porch, it was SO BONE CHILLING COLD! Typical TX - 80 and shorts and in less than 3 hours 330 and headed down to 25. Thank goodness, I DID get bth the inside and outside of my A/C window unit covered up, got the water loose from the outside spickets, got the hummingbird feeder and my new bird feeder cleaned up, washed & put up for the winter. I am still working on the research for which "Tankless Water Heater to buy for the house QUICKLY!!!" Getting research and which "walk in shower" (WITHOUT DOORS JUST A SHOWER CURTAIN) that has to be done. I have got to get at least 1 set of rails for my front porch up. I just cannot carry things up and down even as "not steep" as those steps are in the front, they are danger to me and everyone. I thought at 1st I would do metal BUT, that would be HOT in the summer and freezing in the winter. Plus between rain and humidity that metal would be useless. SO, I thought I would use treated SMOOTH lumber and just stain it. The steps are concrete so those rails can be anchored into the concrete steps. I really only need ONE set. I use only the right hand side coming up and going down, so for now 1 set would be fine. I had forgotten but those ROTTEN WINDOWS IN MY LAST "BEDROOM" in the back have to go! No repair, they just need to be removed & I am going to put a couple of windows like my neighbors. Theirs are a bit wider, but shorter. Plus they are perfect in that area for where plants sit, and they will get the sun they need. I have a total of SIX big of the old windows that were "weighted" like most of the homes that are especially wooden are around here built in the 50's. But. the people that owned the house I bought it from must have not had good renters, the windows just were not propel managed, ... they have breaks in some of them, they tend to stay wet, where that part of the house is more shady and so forth. Plus, my neighbor and I are talking about letting him do the work (which is most of it) he can do. He has been doing all kinds of hand-man things from showers, to light fixtures, doors, and you name it for people here in town. So, he is good, he is very TALL! LOL! Actually most of the time he can stand on the floor and put a ceiling in without needing a ladder. By the way, I am STILL GOING TO SELL THIS HUGE SAUNA/TUB/JACUZZI/WATERFALL, RAINFALL, & YOU CAN EVEN ADD ANSWERING YOURB PHONE, IT HAS A STERO BUILT IN, TWO SHOWER HEADS AND THE RAINWATER FROM THE TOP.It can be taken apart all glass doors, and then set up again wherever someone may want to set it back up. I supposed you could take it and put it into the wall. I left mine on the legs, put tile under it so I could move it if I ever need needed to. A "walk in shower" will be PERFECT" for the pups and me. They can't climb into and out of the tub either. Not with their hips and legs. I am going to buy one of the already ones with all of the surround walls, get the bottom one, which will fit where my drain is, & will have PLENTY of room left for either adding more shelves in the bathroom, or adding more onto one side that goes into the closet of the bedroom, so I have ore walk in & storage space.
It's not often that I REALLY GET FROM FRUSTRATED TO PLAIN MAD AS HECK with any of my doctor's! But;. as MANY of us that are "chronic Pain patients" know, there is a "rotten egg" in the basket between pain specialists, the FDA, the CDC... and so forth, also the Senate and House.... This has been going on for years, the old thing about "we are all "addicts", and really don't ned the pain meds... and the old story continues. I have heard so many horribly SAD stories abut how p atients have had their meds suddenly without cause jerked away from them, doctors up and moving, and so forth BUT!!! there is definitely ANOTHER SIDE TO THE STORY! That is the "home made meth, the "so-called "Fentaynal patches" that are NOT real from a Pharma co, people mixing cold meds, or all kinds of concoctions, and selling them to people, AND because MANY IF OUR SPECIALISTS THAT ARE LEGITIMATE (MY DOCTOR HAS BEEN IN THE NAVY AS A DOCTOR FOR MNY YEARS, THEN SPENT ANOTHER 22 PLUS YEARS IN SPECIALIZING IN PAI MANAGEMENT! I've beenseeing him for over 12 years and inf act really the ONLY "pain doctor" I have ever seen. I "trusted" him and He "trusted" me... so we had a great "patient/doctor relationship that I NEVER QUESTIONED... We went througha couple of things when i 1st got my pain pump which the 1st one was over 10 YEARS ago, that one went haywire after about 5 years to the date, so he had to replace it, & that WAS ALMOST 6 YEARS AGO, THIS COMNG OCTOBER OR SO. I als always had a very small amount of "oral meds" I kept from him, so in case the pump went out or something happened that I quickly needed more meds for some reason, I had a few pills to carry me through, like when the 1st pump went out. Itwas on a Friday NIGHT of all times and a "holiday weekend" s the pump was "beeping" every 10 minutes, and I could not turn it off... I could decrease the sound some thank goodness but I could not completely all the way. So, it was like from Friday night till the following Tuesday before I could even speak to his office. What irks me though, is the pump was "gone and I had to have out completely replaced. So, that week i had to have an outpatient surgery to take it out & put a new one in. But it was a day procedure & I went home that afternoon... THEY WERE (THE COMPANY) WAS SUPPOSED TO TELL ME "WHY IT WENT OUT" LIKE IT DID WHICH WAS VERY UNUSUAL, BUT I REALLY NEVER GOT A STRAIGHT ANSWER... THE point is I "caught" something very "odd" about 6 months ago about my doctor, and his office... things were strange, they no longer got the medication filled & sent to me from a pharmacy in Dallas, which they had done for years. So, I had to call them, they had to physically send me a script, I had to take here to my local pharmacy... so it took longer, with al of the cal, the send to me which the mail is so slow now, then the pharamacy may or may NOT have the meds ... and then suddenly my doctor MOVES FROM AN OFFICE HE JUST A COUPLE OF YEARS AGO BOUGHT AND REMODELED! It was like he didn't tell us anything, just moves, sends out a post card with a "strange new address on it"... which was horrible to find! Then suddenly all of the employees almost were different. After years some of them suddenly were gone ... and the ONE HEAD WOMAN I COULD CALL & leave a message and she would call me I ALWAYS LEFT A MESSAGE FOR AND and she always returned my calls, just stopped calling me back. t was just nuts. Then all of a sudden my doctor for no reason, just in a "chicken" move "halved" my medication! BUT rather than explain it, he kind of just mumbled a few words that was not like him and more or less, made the "assistant" take the heat for the sudden change. So, I go in yesterday after driving in pouring rain, water over the road, to get my refill for my pump... and now he is ONLY IN THE OFFICE on Wednesdays! So, if my pump n a fill on a Friday, I either have it refilled days EARLY or I take a chance and wait an extra 5 or 6 days & hope it does not get too low that it beeps again... so I go in make a darned horrible weather trip & find out (due to their own equipment that is flawed and I hłd know it & told them many times) I had enough medication in the pump to last me at least another 7 days. So I go in and he pulls out enough (as always) that I could have waited another 5 to 7 days and not have to come in earlier than necessary. But. he "jumps" me and says "You are not using the meds you have" & I said wait a minute this had been a "flaw" from day one. It happens every time we fill it. It "says to come in on like the 15th of a month" BUT when he pulls i out it is NT my fault. If they had equipment correct it should have told me to wait and use up more of what was in there. I HATED THAT TRIP YESTERDAY!! HAD I KNOWN I could have waited till Next "week" in better weather before making that dreadful trip u there! As He is waking out & that was another thing 'HE ALWAYS CLOSES A DOOR WHEN HE COMES IN TO SEE A PATIENT! YESTERDAY HE WALKED IN LEFT THE DOOR STANDING WIDE OPEN WHERE EVERYONE COULD HEAR & SEE ALL GOING ON IN MY ROOM! The nurse got up and had to come shut to door... he was just going to leave it wide open! Then he said several things that sounded "off".... and when he began to leave the room, I asked him about my refill for my meds and he said "I a