Lots of things "resolved", others to pop up, still baffled by my issues with severe pain in my legs & some other joints...

Well, I will say the weekend was pleasant. I got a great deal done, plus got to rest also. I began work on a new quilt (FINALLY), I have been wanting to begin piecing together now for at least a year, possibly more. Between surgery, illness, and all of the other stuff life "chunks" at us, I am just now finding time to start on it. This week for a CHANGE, I "Hopefully" have no doctors visits (like I said I hope), and have completed several things that have been outstanding, as far as around the house, paperwork and so forth. I needed a document completed, that I thought would be an "easy" thing to get done. Turns out I ran into issues with one of my doctor's office managers. He was a real jerk honestly, which is nothing new. But, the entire situation that has been building now for awhile (I am not the only one that does not appreciate his derogatory ways), thus it in a way got settled last week. I am hoping it has been understood between that office, and myself. I hate to have to "fight" for everything when it comes to medical things. It if is not a prescription, it is an appointment, or the insurance company, or the pharmacy, or the incompetancy of someone, and lack of caring about people, and their own job. But, I can say between a prescription that I had to go to "bat" on, to an outstanding insurance claim on my Mom, that I finally had to write a long, detailed letter on and send it to a physician that has a stake in this surgical center, to finally getting "hopefully" a phone call stating my deep freeze ((it has now been over a dozen phone calls, emails & over 12 months of mess) to get this deep freeze that is just not sealing right, replaced. I added it up last night. If the company and I am going to mention them, "Haier" would have just "replaced" it at first, rather than try to fix something that had a flaw from the very first at the factory, they could have saved themselves well over 800.00 or MORE in time, parts, labor, phone calls and head aches. Now they still have to bring us a new one, and pick this piece of crap up, after all of their loss. It is insanity!

Actually, going quickly back to the entire "medical" situation. I just read a very interesting article about "doctors and their lack of communication" with patients! That is a subject I often speak about myself, as well as hear it from scores of online as well as close friends and family. It is one of the most frustrating things to go through, and it makes for a patient not understanding their own health needs. Plus it also causes a great deal of missed information if the doctors do NOT listen to us. Not two days ago, over that paper I needed filled out, I said "IF they would have given me 2 minutes" I could have explained what I was asked to do, and then the doctors office personnel would have understood my position. But, instead, the form was literally "thrown back into my lap" by this person, and I was basically told,  the doctors says go to this "other type of doctor" to get it signed. Well, in the first place, I did not even NEED that "type" of a doctor, and why would I go to a complete stranger to sign a form, that needs to be signed by my own physician that knows my entire medical history??? It was totally stupid. But, again this article is talking about just how patients do not understand, or doctors miss vital information because they do not listen, so tests get done wrong, or don't get done. Or worse, tests you do NOT need that drive up medical costs are done and not even necessary. Plus it makes for a mis-diagnosis that could result in issues of possible law suits. Having an extremely STRONG "communication" level with your doctors to me is even more important than some of the other things. Items that might get overlooked, are put out there, thus both parties get more correct information, which results in less office calls, visits, or hospital stays. It is a win-win, but many doctors were never "trained" in patient handling. I have heard it all. The ones that really drive me nuts are the ones that act like you are "nuts", or stupid. You come in, with possibly information you learned on line, about your symptoms, and you want to ask questions. Maybe they might be relative to your condition. Yet, you are quickly cut off by a disgruntled tone and look, along with something to the effect you do NOT know your self as well as the doctor does! Now, I understand THEY are the ones who went to school, etc... BUT an "INFORMED" patient about their on conditions, body, feelings, and symptoms, is normally a HELPFUL patient! We tend to give more information to HELP get diagnosed, not try to act as if we know it all.As my husband says, when we are chronically ill, we tend to concentrate our "research" on that one or more illness or illnesses, thus we get a great deal more understanding about one or a few things, which can be extremely helpful. Whereas doctors, have to know so much, about so many things, they may just "miss" something due to the fact they do not have time to do that much extensive research on something like RA, Lupus, FM and so forth.

Okay, enough of that. Off my "soap box". I could talk about that subject for weeks.

Back to getting some things caught up. OF course that means "Murphy's Law", or more like "Rhia's Law", when you feel caught up, look out, something else will happen, break etc. I got that paper fixed, we did finally get the right part for our clothes dryer and it is fixed. Our music room is cleaned out pretty well, and things put up in the attic. We found out the parts we need for our leaky kitchen faucet, and I ordered those. I got my Mom's income taxes done, signed, sealed and sent off yesterday. She is doing well, and I am so thrilled about that. The weather is getting nicer by the day. But, on the other hand, since we had little to no "winter" weather, the bugs, vermin, and those damned "lizard" things I hate are already rearing their ugly heads. I saw the first one on the porch last night dammit. No matter what anyone says, those things freak me the hell out. And nothing gets rid of them! I got a new hummingbird feeder in also, that is supposed to be "ant and bee" proof, thank goodness. We lost hummingbirds (well they would not stay) last year due to the stupid bees. We know we have a huge nest close. They were on our back lot in an old piece of a bus, but we think they have moved. Yet, they are close enough that they can find that hummingbird food if it leaks out the least bit, they can find it. Thus the number that come so suddenly, makes us know they do have that hive fairly close. We used to see them coming out of the side of the bus, but we did not last year. Thus we think they may have moved, just somewhere else, but still close.

I am hoping to get some work done on my 2nd poetry book this week also!:) Of course, if the days this week go by as fast as yesterday, it will be next Monday, before I even know what happened. I felt I got little done yesterday, yet it was almost 5 pm before I even looked up to see the time. So, I am going to try my best to combine house hold chores etc, with a week of reprieve hopefully from doctors appts, and be able to work on the quilt and my book! I still want to meet my own "deadline" on the 2nd poetry book. I really had my heart set on getting it published by the end of May. But, that will be here before I know it. So, I have a great deal of work to do before that deadline. If not, possibly by mid-June, depending on all of the other things in life that decide to interrupt us.

Take care... and thank you for "listening"... please comment any time.. I would love to hear from you!!!

Rhia

And The Days Goes By - With Nothing Else To Do...

Ah, anyone that happens to be a huge fan of my greatest "mentor", the one person I have I guess you may say "idolized" for many years, she who inspires me, the one that gives me words, when it seems they fail me, and she is so much of a mystery, yet so open to me, Stevie Nicks. The "Title" of this blog, is a portion of one of her songs, and I shall let those that know her well guess which song...

My writing today, consists of some relief, some concern, some disdain, a great deal of aggravation. and I guess the list goes on, as to what feelings I am coping with today.

After a year or more, after 6 or 7 Doctors (I have lost count), after endless tests, blood work, CT's, eye exams of every kind, some I have never knew even existed, after even being put to sleep and have a "temporal artery biopsy", going through Neurologists, and even Higher Specialists, the news yesterday about the "double vision" I have been experiencing for a year was a relief first of all. But talk about feeling also feelings of "I told you so", I knew It all along, I said it in the beginning, what a waste of our time, our money, and much aggravation... we find out that more than likely the Lupus, along with some of my other chronic health issues & medications are the culprits. From the beginning, I had said I felt it was just one more symptom of the Lupus, MTCD etc. Yet, there I went through the most extensive work up any one person could go through... with the exception of BRAIN SURGERY!, every damned test that could possibly be ran was done. The new doctor yesterday, another "Neuro-Ophthalmologist", confirmed my suspicions. He did more testing himself in the office, and ones that I have never encountered. But, when I began to look them up. they also were very specific for double vision, and how to correct it with the proper "prisms" in my glasses. Well, that was the very first thing my own Ophthalmologist did when I saw them. They "corrected" the double vision by putting prisms in my glasses. they at the time I think suspected it to very well be something to do with Lupus, but due to my health issues, and the complications  I have they felt a specialist needed to go into further testing to make sure I was not dealing with yet another chronic illness, like MS, Myasthenia Gravis etc. or also as the idiot, insane doctor did the biopsy on the temporal artery. I got the impression that this new doctor yesterday may have ran some of the tests that I have had, but I gather he may not have went into as much depth as the others did. We were of course relieved at first. But, we were also disgusted, pissed, upset, disappointed, and a number of other things that first of all, I thought it all along, and should have "listened" to my own feelings about all of this, plus if one of these others would have made a damned "diagnosis" rather than continue to jerk me around all over the universe with this. it could have and would have been over months and months ago! The amount of stress, trauma, testing, money and time that went into all of this was ridiculous! I "get" that with my amount of complications they take "extra" precautions, but I feel that this went far above "normal" precautions. Second of all, of course, there is no "cure". My only way to resolved the "symptoms" is to wear the "prismed glasses" which will "trick my eyes" into thinking the brain is sending the signals correctly and my muscles will be tricked into looking both the same direction. What is happening is that the signals go to the eyes from the brain, so the muscles of the eyes will line up the same, and you see one image. My eyes due to a weakness of muscles especially when I am more tired, can't hold the 'signals" to be straight together, thus one eye travels off a different way slightly, causing the double vision. The doctors "goal" is to give me the proper prism and proper amount in my glasses so I never see double vision when I wear them. So, I already have a prism in both of mine now, and I have a new prescription that will be a stronger prism, plus my vision has changed a little, thus correcting the double vision even more hopefully, maybe enough that this does the trick for good. But, there is much more he can add if need be.
All of the crap I endured, and both of us, plus my Mom and family endured to find out it is what I thought anyway. Then they wonder why people don't like going to the doctors and dealing with all of the "drama", time and expense. Often it is just like this incident, it winds up being something you already knew and it is a "benign" situation anyway. Other than my regular eye doctor not being able to say for certain it was the Lupus, they "corrected" the issue from the beginning, and probably could continue to "upgrade" the prism as needed in the future if it is needed.
Our part did come in and it fixed my clothes dryer problem!!! HOOOOO RAYYYY!!! Now I have to catch up on all of the laundry... not too bad with the two of us, but more than usual of course.

The weather SUCKS! Yesterday a.a. on the way to Dallas it really sucked. The rain was so bad, along with the blowing wind and it still being so dark, you could barely see the road and I saw several getting off to wait until they could see to continue on. Of course we had rush hour traffic to deal with, and needed to be at the doctor online, thus we marched on, and got there without any problems, but on the other side of the highway as we reached downtown Dallas, they had a major pile up!!!! A Fed-Ex truck, and several other huge trucks were jack knifed, and then many cars also wrecked. So, that was not a pretty sight for sure. That is why I HATE DRIVING IN BAD WEATHER!!!!! Especially in lots of traffic and on busy highways.. it is just pure dangerous...
Needless to say, I am worn to a frazzle today. Everything on me hurts, and my mind, body and spirit are all just exhausted. My plans are to NOT leave this house, but do laundry, and rest today. I have to get to feeling better so I can sew on my quilt and work on my book!!!!! I still intend on making my deadline!



The other issue of course is North Korea. I am just all up in arms over the entire thing. I feel their "leader" is a total raving insane lunatic! And I am not very optimistic. As I told my husband last night, all of us better have "our" business straight with our "Maker". I am feeling that a nuclear or chemical weapon situation is upon us, or close enough to us with allies that we WILL feel the effects of it. I see it turning into WWIII honestly. This guy is totally psychotic, and he has brainwashed an entire country to totally believe him! Talk about one scary situation! Those people hate us, and they do not know one speck of the truth about us, about any of the world, etc. All they know is lies that have been fed since birth. I feel he has no remorse, and no "feelings" for humanity. IF he harms his own along the way, I feel he could care less. It is truly unbelievable that situation is such dire straits. But, my thoughts are I take it very seriously, and feel that as I said, we better have our hearts set in the right place. I do not want to sound like some kind of weirdo saying "The end is near"... but I tell you I am totally beyond a little leery about all of his threats....



I end today with did you "find out the Song" the name of this blog today lyrics are from by Stevie Nicks?

Easter Blessings, News on A Medical Center Specializing in Chronic Illness, and More...

Lots of bits of great information today! First of all, wishing everyone a Blessed Easter! Whatever your beliefs may be, is not the main issue... the main thing is we all would love to have peace... of heart, of mind, of body and soul. So, I wish everyone a day full of peace, of joy, of family and friends, laughter of children looking for those hidden eggs, and all that today means for you and yours.

I had seen the the "mini-series" "The Bible" is on the Discovery Channel, and thought I missed it. IT appears to really be a great movie, however your beliefs stand, I was really intrigued by the small bits I saw advertised. Enough that I went and found I could down load it all today. There are about 5 different two hour shows to it, so it will be one to watch over days to come for sure. Just a quick thought in case anyone is interested.

Now for other things. I was reading the news this morning, and found out about a new clinic in Scottsdale AZ, who specialize in treatment of chronic illnesses, such as Lupus, FN,, CFS, Chronic Lyme Disease, and also Cancers. They seem to have a totally different view of these illnesses, believing of course, that Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome are very REAL! That is not just some "made up" thing to use when doctors have problems figuring out difficult illnesses such as these, or the ones that think women are "depressed, hypochondriacs, nut cases" of whatever. They seem to belief all of these stem from a particular virus, (which I have thought for a very long time that FM, CFS are some how related to Lupus, RA, and all of the other autoimmune illnesses) and that it is these viruses that need to be treated, because they are at the core of why these illnesses come on. As often said, you may carry this around for many years, then a traumatic event, a wreck, an accident, a loss of family, even a stress such as a wedding, etc.. maybe something as benign as having a tooth pulled sets these viruses suddenly in motion, and thus we come down with these life-altering chronic diseases that can just totally ruin our lives in so many ways.

Here is the URL:  http://www.envita.com/

I hope you will check it out. I was truly bowled over with some things I read there. They do make sense in many ways, plus they treat the "entire person" and not just pushing some pills down your throat.

Also, horrific news in a neighboring country Kaufman County TX. They found their District Attorney and his wife shot to death yesterday in their home. They feel this is connected to the murder just aouple of months ago of one of their Assistant DA's. It happened on a work morning around 9am, right in front of the court house. Someone shot him in the middle of the day and got away. I even read that the gentleman in CO, (an official) opened his front door and someone also shot him standing in his front door at his home. They talked as if they suspected the three slayings may all be some how related. I know it rattled me. What a horrible situation.

We are already battling I am sure with the notion of a nuclear situation with the idiot over in N. Korea. It is difficult to fathom that one young man could have that much power over a country of people. I was reading this morning about how he does not even allow them internet, and they sure never get the truth about America and our people. Those people over their think we are horrible, and that we live entirely different than what we do. It was just ridiculous the things I read that they are told there. When you read a headline that says something like "N. Korea's Ominous Bluster" you can't help me be frightened that his insane actions could lead him into making one mis-step are all out nuclear war begins. I know we don't like to think about it, but how can you not when you hear what is happening over there. Things are almost a nightmare in our own country, and some of what is going on, but that over there and those threats are nothing to sit around and laugh about I don't think.

I had talked about my latest venture in making a new quilt. I have had the "fat quarters" of material now for a while. I bought them at a huge discount a while back, knowing they should come out making a Queen Sized Quilt. I already have a backing material, thus other than having to possibly purchase more battling, I don't like much putting it together. I have not been able to get to working on it over the past months due to my own surgeries, illnesses, and everything else in life that goes on. Thus after being able to have a break from feeling so rotten, I got out the sewing machine, and all of those pieces of material, and put a quilt top together over the past couple of days. LOL, I have to laugh at myself though. I was going to make it "plain" for the most part. The material is all different colors, thus it is a patchwork of color for sure. And I was just going to put it together like it is, with some material I have had for a while as the backing, that is kind of a patterned very light peach and white, with the batting in between, and sew in the seams to "quilt" it down. Then yesterday, I got out a couple of the books I bought about quilting and then got to thinking about doing an applique or doing some other type of stitching into it, etc! I don't want to get too carried away with the "fancy" things, because then I will get disgusted with it, and not get it completed. So, after getting the whole thing sewn together, it dawned on me, if I were wanting to do something special on the individual squares, like an applique, I should have done that BEFORE SEWING the entire thing as a top!!! LOL, now if I decide to do something so technical, that means having to have the entire heavy quilt top at the machine all at once. Which is fine, and I may not do that particular thing anyway. But, it just goes to show I am out of practice unlrss I a hemming pants, or doing something simple. Hell, I got confused in putting the thread into the machine correctly, and had to get my book out to make sure I was doing the right. It had a "self"threading device on it to thread the needle, and I have still not figured that out even with the book! It just does not make sense to me the way the directions say. So, as usual, I thread it by hand... easier and much less stressful! :) So, there are my bits and pieces of things for the weekend.

I am not sure if I mentioned here that my Mom's 2nd round of tests on her heart were much, much better! IN fact, so much better, that she does NOT face further testing or surgery for now! Just the same routine of medication and watching very closely her sodium intake. That made us extremely happy last Tuesday! We were all truly blessed and relieved to have the good news on that one.

Still waiting on the "thunderstorms", that so far have not been here. Ah, but it is TX! So, one moment the sun is shining and the next it is black as coal dust and ready to blow you away....

May you enjoy your Easter Day, Rhia



As I wrote this yesterday, I had forgotten to add that Eater Sunday was the day my Dad passed away in 2005. It seems impossible it has been 8 years! There are times it feels like forever and then other times it feels like it was just yesterday. Honestly, as much as I still miss him everyday, he is much better there than here. My Dad would not be able to handle all of the tremendous changes in our world today. He had a large enough issue with the changes about the last 15 years of his life. He was so used to a "small town", with a very small town attitude, that he found it hard to accept some things that the world brought in so quickly. Things like a cellphone, even a cordless phone, he just did not understand it. Heck for years he was "leasing" a phone from AT & T and they were charging Mom monthly for that until I had it fixed! He came from a time, during the Great Depression, that there were no televisions, only radio's, there were no cars when he was very small, a school was a one room building where all grades First through Senior were in the same room. He was Valedictorian of his graduating class. He was not really able to accept why I would go to college, and even though he could see why I needed to work, he felt a woman should really be at home, and the man be the main money maker, just as it was with him and Mom. A Computer??? Forget it! No way he would fathom that. He was more of a stickler for the "old ways". Even though some of that changed as he saw the world change, he really never was able to accept most of it. Anyway, if he were here now, and saw all of the horrid things that are happening daily in our nation and around the globe, even the "good" things like technology, it would just be something he could not accept. As things go, I guess we shall all be that way in one realm or other. So much changes so quickly. We have news and information, of the latest at our fingertips. When you think about what changes have happened over the past 50 years it is mind boggling.  Anyway, I felt I needed to add this since it was the Easter part of the day he passed away. 

The Merri-Go-Round of Insanity with Doctors & Pharmacists!

IT is all like insanity! Some of the things we go through people just don't believe! For instance, I had a prescription I have been taking for years. (My generic diazepam). Every month they have to as the doctor for an okay on the refill. Every month for 5 or more years he okays it, they fill it, and no problem. Week before last on Friday, I cld and put in for a refill. I went in on Sunday and it was not there yet. Well I had forgotten he was on vacation, thus probably the delay. So, Monday evening I go in, still nothing. Then the pharmacist (some new jerk that I can't understand) told me there was NEVER a call for it! Well, I knew that was bull because they had already filled my other script, the muscle relaxer, which he does the same thing approves it monthly at the SAME TIME AS THE DIAZEPAM! So, I call the doctor, They say they sent the script ON FRIDAY! But, they "resent" it. I went through that same thing 3 MORE TIMES! Then it dawned on me, they sent the damned thing to "WAL" MART not Wal Greens! So, I call and someone named "Kelly" at Wally World told me "YES" they had it and they were filling it. She asked me if I still wanted it filled, and I said YES! I was not going through another battle to get it, so I would pick it up the next day! I get there, and they proceed to tell me there is NO script for me!!!!!! One of the girls stepped up as I argued and told what my story was, and she said "well I think I recall m PCP's office calling and "cancelling" it out"!! Well that was a lie, because I was told it was already in the system, being filled, yet she says there is NOTHING IN THE SYSTEM! Well, if they called and it had already been in the computer, the script would show it was there and was cancelled by the doctor. So, I am pissed by now. I called the doctors office, in Wal Mart, and I ask for the nurse. I told her I even told them there at their office to MAKE SURE it was going to WAL GREENS! not Wal Mart. She swore they had sent it to Wal Greens 4 times! In the mean time, I finish shopping, go home and call Wal Greens. Not only did he have it he already filled it!!! AFter I had to have the nurse CALL it in verbally! All 3 of them were lying. No one had done their job right, and I knew it. And then people wonder why we go crazy!!!!!! Hell who wouldn't. When you are ill, in pain, trying to take care of a home, family, a Mom, and everything else, doctors visits etc... then you have to jump through those kinds of hoops for one script, heck it would make Jesus Nuts!!!!! So, when you have to do what you are doing, having to GO BACK due to their incompetence, it is just nine kinds of WRONG!!! Jim read an article about a woman who now charges her doctors for HER TIME if they run late on her appointments. IF she has to sit there more than 10 minutes for a "scheduled" appointment, she send them a bill for every moment of her time spent waiting for the doctor! She sent all of her doctors a formal letter telling them what she was going to do, explaining "her" time was just as important as theirs and they would charge her if she was late or did not show, thus she would do the same! She sent one of her doctors a bill, when she had to wait something like 2 hours (happens to me all the time) over her appointment time, and they PAID IT! That is what all of us need to do. We have to stand up for our rights. Another thing that irks me. I needed a very simple form with two of my "diagnosis" codes on it (I had everything else filled in but that) and my doctors signature. I needed it by 4/1, well before that because I had to either fax or mail it! I took the form in last Tuesday early am. I had a note on it, and told the girls my situation. They totally ignored me. I sent two emails to my doctors nurse, asking her to please check on it. No response. I cld. Thursday evening, and one of them was so rude on the phone. She said "well he fills those out late evenings, or at the end of the week" Well guess what, yesterday was the "end of the week" and they close at noon, and I have NO PAPER! (It is a form I need to send in about my disability). You know how the government is, even State, if they want something and you do not get it there by the deadline, they will cancel everything and make you start all over again! I realize I am not the ONLY patient, but heck, he does all kinds of other crap, he had time to tell his nurse to fill in those codes (hell I know them myself) and then he sign it, or they "rubber stamp" it half the time with his signature! But they DO NOT CARE! We are not as important. We are how they get paid, but it does not matter if they mess up our lives, and then we suffer for their lack of caring, and incompentancy. As I said it is nuts. I have so many stories where I have been screwed over. I guess you read the one I posted about that stupid Neurologist "firing" me! What an idiot!!! I would not take my puppy to him.
So often people do not understand just how frustrating things are with physicians. IF you do not go very often to a doctor, or for tests, or do not deal with a pharmacy very often, then you can't possibly get it, I understand that. But, the millions of us out here that DO deal with it, on sometimes a daily basis, it is definitely enough to drive a very sane person over the edge. It wastes OUR time, our money, and often it causes more hardship on us, by having to go back to the pharmacy, or make more phone calls, and then the doctors now get pissed if you "call more than once". All of them now have a message that says "if you call more than once it may delay your prescription etc.) WELL if they would GET THINGS TO US ON TIME!, we WOULD NOT CALL BACK! So, they have issues for sure. It is a constant merri-go-round of crap to deal with. Then they wonder why we have so much stress, anxiety, depression, and often just plain anger. Well as I said, even Christ would be angry over some of the mess I deal with. 

Whom Can "Fire" Who?? A Doctor "firing" a patient? Why can't we fire them???

Maybe some of you have had this happen, but in all my years of doctors this as a first! I got a letter in the mail this week from the neurologist that did my EMG/NCS about 4 weeks ago. ALL he was supposed to do was those tests, nothing else. Well, he did this whole gamut of crap, and then told me I needed to see a Vascular doctor, and have more blood work(I just had the same stuff), plus he wanted ANOTHER CT SCAN that I just HAD 4 MONTHS AGO and spent a fortune on that showed NOTHING! Well, I spoke to my own doctors about the whole thing, and they told me none of what he wanted was necessary, but if I did want to have my arteries checked out my cardiologist told me it was an okay idea but no huge hurry. Well the letter told me he as of me receiving that letter cancelled the "doctor/patient" relationship. I thought maybe he was in trouble or something so I called. Just because I DID NOT GO TO THE VASCULAR doctor immediately (when I had already told them I had my Mom's mitral heart situation to clear up first), plus HE WAS NOT MY DOCTOR, HE was to do JUST THE TESTS!, anyway He basically "fired" me as a patient!!!!! What an ass! In the first place I was not going back and did not even have an appt with him. in the 2nd place my pain dr. who requested the tests already has seen me and the tests and has told me what I needed to do. And in the 3rd place CAN WE FIRE OUR DOCTORS WHO TREAT US LIKE CRAP??? MAKE US GO THROUGH STUPID EXPENSIVE TESTS that we do NOT need??? What a jack ass!!! We had a huge laugh over it! So, any of you been "fired" for not doing EXACTLY what your doctor suggested??? I thought this was a "free" world....